Joy and Grief

I know joy and grief exist simultaneously but I run out of words trying to describe joy while I can go on and on about grief. Maybe, because happiness stays in my life for a fleeting moment. Even when I am happy, I start thinking about how I will never get this moment back and I am forever going to miss it. These thoughts merge that happiness with sadness, ruining a perfect moment. 

If I were to describe grief, I would say that it catches you on a random Tuesday leaving your heart heavy and empty at the same time. You think that it should not hurt you much now considering that what happened was a long time ago but it still hurts like a fresh wound. It makes you a slave to nostalgia. It makes you wish to go back to your past to relive some beautiful moments again but unfortunately you can't. You miss some people who were once a significant part of your life but now you have grown apart from them. They might not miss you because it is only your burden to carry such intense emotions while others go on about their lives normally. But where there is love, there will be grief. Grief is the price you pay for loving people. So if you have been grief stricken and still choose to open your heart to love, you are the strongest human. 

It is brave of you to live and love life despite all the grief that engulfs your heart on a daily basis. Joy might be short lived but there will be moments when your heart would be overjoyed and you'll live in the present moment with no care of the world. I think acceptance gives you the stomach to love and lose and still be kind. Accepting that nothing ever belongs to you, it is all an experience. Accepting that every emotion you are feeling right now will pass and you will heal in spite of this grief and one day, it wouldn't hurt much. <3