Sad-tember

September left me dried, ashen, bitten, and blue.

it took away all my will to live,

leaving my heart deserted on a barren land.

i tried to control things, mend broken bonds, 

strengthen friendships but it was all in vain.

i needed to remind myself that i can't force anything,

i have to just let things be.

nothing was that serious but,

this month took something from me.

the girl who used to look forward to life,

now avoids it and wishes for darkness to arrive

so that she could cry herself to sleep.

this chaotic brain is so full of thoughts,

but it doesn't want anyone to know anything now.

i don't know exactly what has changed, 

but i feel disconnected from everyone.

i know it's just a phase and it'll pass,

but i fear what if it's too late?